Eminem - Stan

my tea's gone
cold I'm wondering
why I
got out of bed at all
the morning rain
clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
and even if
I could it'll all be gray
but your picture
on my wall
it reminds me
that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
my tea's gone
cold I'm wondering
why I
got out of bed at all
the morning rain
clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
and even if I could
it'll all be gray
but your picture
on my wall
it reminds me
that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
dear Slim I wrote
but you still ain't callin
I left my cell my pager
and my home phone
at the bottom
I sent two letters back
in autumn you must
not a got 'em
there probably
was a problem
at the post office
or something
sometimes I scribble
addresses too sloppy
when I jot 'em
but anyways
fuck it
what's been up man
how's your daughter
my girlfriend's
pregnant too
I'm bout to be a father
if I have a daughter
guess what
I'ma call her
I'ma name her Bonnie
I read about
your uncle Ronnie too
I'm sorry
I had a friend kill
himself over some bitch
who didn't want him
I know you probably
hear this everyday
but I'm your biggest fan
I even got
the underground shit
that you did with Skam
I got a room
full of your posters
and your pictures man
I like the shit you did
with Rawkus too
that shit was fat
anyways
I hope you get
this man hit me back
just to chat truly
yours your biggest fan
this is Stan
my tea's gone
cold I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
the morning rain
clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
and even if
I could it'll all be gray
but your picture
on my wall
it reminds me
that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
dear Slim you still
ain't called or wrote
I hope you have a chance
I ain't mad
I just think it's fucked up
you don't answer fans
if you didn't wanna
talk to me outside
your concert
you didn't have
to but you could
a signed an autograph
for Matthew
that's
my little brother man
he's only six years old
we waited
in the blistering cold
for you four hours and
you just said no
that's pretty
shitty man
you're like his fuckin idol
he wants to be just like
you man he likes
you more than I do
I ain't that mad
though I just don't
like bein lied to remember
when we met in Denver
you said if I'd write you
you would write back
see I'm just like you
in a way
I never knew
my father neither
he used
to always cheat on
my mom and beat her
I can relate
to what you're saying
in your songs
so when
I have a shitty day
I drift away
and put 'em on
cause I don't really
got shit else so
that shit helps
when I'm depressed
I even got
a tattoo of
your name across
the chest
sometimes
I even cut myself
to see how much
it bleeds
it's like adrenaline
the pain is such
a sudden rush for me
see everything
you say is real
and I respect
you cause you tell it
my girlfriend's
jealous cause
I talk about you 24/7
but she don't know
you like I know
you slim no one does
she don't know
what it was like
for people like us
growin up
you gotta call me man
I'll be the biggest fan
you'll ever lose
sincerely yours Stan
P S
we should be together too
my tea's gone
cold I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
the morning rain
clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
and even if
I could it'll all be gray
but your picture on my wall
it reminds me
that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
dear Mister
I'm too good
to call or write my fans
this'll be the last package
I ever send your ass
been six months
and still no word
I don't deserve it
I know you got
my last two letters
I wrote the addresses
on 'em perfect
so this is my cassette
I'm sending you
I hope you hear it
I'm in the car
right now I'm doing
90 on the freeway
hey Slim I drank
a fifth of vodka
you dare me to drive
you know the song
by Phil Collins
in the air of the night
about that guy
who could a saved
that other guy
from drowning
but didn't then
Phil saw it all then
at a show
he found him
that's kinda
how this is
you could rescued
me from drowning
now it's too late
I'm on a 1000 downers now
I'm drowsy
and all I wanted was
a lousy letter or a call
I hope you know
I ripped all of
your pictures off the wall
I love you Slim
we could a been
together think about it
you ruined it now
I hope you can't
sleep and you dream about it
and when you dream
I hope you can't sleep
and you scream
about it
I hope your conscience eat
at you and you can't breathe
without me
see Slim shut up
bitch I'm tryin to talk
hey Slim that's
my girlfriend screamin
in the trunk
but I didn't slit
her throat I just tied
her up see I ain't
like you
cause if she suffocates
she'll suffer more and
then she'll die too
well gotta go I'm almost
at the bridge now
oh shit I forgot how much
I supposed to send
this shit out
my tea's gone
cold I'm wondering why I
got out of bed at all
the morning rain
clouds up my window
and I can't see at all
and even if
I could it'll all be gray
but your picture
on my wall
it reminds me
that it's not so bad
it's not so bad
dear Stan
I meant to write
you sooner
but I just been busy
you said
your girlfriend's pregnant now
how far along is she
look I'm really
flattered you would call
your daughter that
and here's an
autograph for
your brother
I wrote it on the starter cap
I'm sorry I didn't see
you at the show
I musta missed you
don't think
I did that shit
intentionally just to
diss you
but what's this shit
you said about
you like to cut
your wrists too
I say that shit just
clownin dogg
c'mon how fucked up is you
you got some issues Stan
I think you need
some counseling
to help your ass
from bouncing off the walls
when you get down some
and what's this shit
meant to be together
that type of shit'll
make me not
want us to meet each other
I really think you
and your girlfriend
need each other
or maybe you just
need to treat her better
I hope you get
to read this letter
I just hope it reaches
you in time
before you hurt yourself
I think that
you'll be doin just fine
if you relax a little
I'm glad I inspire you
but Stan
why are you so mad
try to understand
that I do want you as a fan
I just don't want
you to do some crazy shit
I seen this one shit
on the news a couple
weeks ago that made me sick
some dude was drunk and
drove his car over a bridge
and had his girlfriend
in the trunk
and she was pregnant
with his kid
and in the car
they found a tape
but they didn't say
who it was to
come to think about it
his name was it you
Damn