Trash Boat - Second Wind

Feel suffocated, caught up in your words like sustenance
You talk about me as if I'm already dead
Every day's the same old shit
He was such a promise kid
So if it's downhill from here then what secures my footing

So sick of losing room to breathe
Why can't you all just leave me be
Don't want to talk through anything but you keep on pushing
Because I can't fight back on good intentions
Words fall short of breaking tension
And if it's all downhill from here then why am I not moving

I'm just another failure A hard fight like it's always been
And I'm prone to misbehavior
But I've got my second wind
And I don't believe in saviors
Keep your absolutes
I hope they work for you
But I'm not up to you

And I worry
These confrontations make me sick, I'm already over it
And I worry
Complications make me sick
I look you in the eyes and just walk away
And I worry, and it makes me sick
I look you in the eyes and walk away
And I worry, and it makes me sick
I look you in the eyes and walk

I'm just another failure A hard fight like it's always been
And I'm prone to misbehavior
But I've got my second wind
And I don't believe in saviors
Keep your absolutes
I hope they work for you
But I'm not up to you